Wednesday, October 12, 2005

life and love....

Today I thought that I was going to be doing something really special for the one that I love. Instead he got very angry at me because of how I did. With that said, I guess I'll tell all of you what I did. He's going to pakistan and he needed some personal items to take with him. But he didn't have the money to get them and no one wouldn't loan him any money to get it. So I told him that I would be more than happy to get them for him. I spent over 70 dollars for the stuff that he needed. He told me to throw it into his car. Throw it because he doesn't want his sister to know that we're still together. So, I threw it as best as I could into the car. It didn't go into the car. It went on the road.

The doors were open and the windows were open. Furthermore,I seen his sisters car there. So I was afraid to get out of my car to put it into his car. At this time,I was getting late to pick up my daughter from school. I had to leave it there.

When I finally got home, he left me messages telling me thanks for throwing it on the road and how a school bus ran over it. Then he told me that his sister picked it up and asked whos it was and he said he didn't know. So she laid it infront of the house. After I read what he wrote, I did respond by telling him that he should have came out to get them then that would not have happened. That's when he wrote me an email telling me that he will never ask me to do anything else for him and that he's leaving today and I want have to worry about him no more.

Come on now! I went out with all the love for him to buy him these things. Couldn't he have said," thanks for trying baby. I do thank you for going out and thinking of me. It wasn't your fault that you couldn't get them into my car. I love you and I thank you for thinking about me." But no,he gets so pissed off at me and now he's gone to pakistan. He wouldn't even talk to me. He just kept on leaving me messages.

I really wish he could give me the kind of love and respect as he does with his family.